These past few days have really shown me what a merciful and awesome God I serve!!! As I said in my last post, Friday was tough, but after I talked to our nurse and got a tentative plan in place, I felt a lot better. I had been praying for God's will to be done in this situation and if His will and mine weren't the same, I had prayed for peace & strength to make it through. I didn't expect that peace to come so quickly!
I spoke to our pastor on Friday night and explained everything to him and my thinking about God's plan in all this. He prayed with me and asked how I was feeling about Mother's day. I told him I wasn't sure if he'd see me at church because they were doing baby dedications and I didn't know if I could handle that. He told me they were only doing one at the 11:00 service and it was a family that I love anyway. He encouraged me to give it a shot and come anyway and if I had to step out during the dedication I could. I told him I'd do my best.
I spent Saturday pampering myself...gave myself a manicure, pedicure and facial and held a Harry Potter marathon. Hubby came home from work and we watched a movie together and got to bed early. Not a tear was shed!
I made it to church Sunday morning for an awesome worship service by our praise team and a great message by our pastor. Again, not a tear was shed!!
I heard from my nurse today who said that we were cleared by our doctor to move ahead with another cycle!!! She said the doctor just wanted me to have some labs drawn to make sure my body wasn't making antibodies that were preventing implantation. I'll go have those drawn today and will start BCP on day 2 of my next cycle!!! I checked the 2011 transfer schedule that they had sent me prior to our first FET and saw dates in the end of June and July. I was assuming that we wouldn't have everything done in time for the June dates, but our nurse seems to think we'll be ok!! Tentative FET #2 date is June 16th!!!
Not only did He bring me peace so quickly and the strength to make it through, but He was merciful enough to make the initial BETA negative. I'm not sure that peace would have come so quickly if we had gotten a positive and then found out later that it wasn't a viable pregnancy. I'm going to continue to let Him guide my steps through all this and pray that these are our babies!!!
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