I am such a horrible blogger!!! I haven't updated in FOREVER!!!
Well, the transfer went well. After researching some hotel rates, we found that it would probably be cheaper to make two trips to VA, one for the catheter fitting and one for the actual transfer. We spent the better part of the week in the car...or so it seems.
There were six embryos in the profile and prior to the freeze the best two were graded A- and B+. When we got to the clinic on the 18th we found out that they had to thaw all six in order to find us two viable ones. Of the two that survived, one was a 6 cell grade B at thaw and 5 cell grade B at transfer and the other was a 7 cell grade B at thaw and had made it to an 8 cell grade B by transfer. The embryologist said we have nothing to worry about with either one.
While I like the idea that we are the only other family that will raise children with this genetic make up aside from the donor parents, I can't help but feel sadness that had they all survived the thaw, two other couples could benefit from our donors sacrifice.
The transfer went smoothly and Bill says he actually saw the embryos come out of the catheter on the ultrasound screen this time. He swears he didn't see it last time! I asked for a screen shot of the ultrasound image and they gave it to us. No embryo pictures until a pregnancy is achieved.
Speaking of pregnancy, I go for my BETA on Friday and I had E2 blood work drawn last Tuesday that the doctor said looked good. I had some left over tests from earlypregnancytests.com and have been testing every morning for the past few days. No good news yet, but I'm still hopeful. The tests that I had at home were expired and from what I'm reading online there are some more sensitive ones out there so I'm going to stop at CVS on the way home and pick some up. While I hate the way I feel when I see a negative test, I think testing before the BETA prepared me for the phone call from the clinic with the negative results last time. This time around I'm getting my blood drawn at work so I can check my results before I leave here and not have to wait for the call.
On another, completely unrelated topic, I'm officially registered for the fall semester nursing program!! I'll have clinicals and simulated labs all day on Mondays and a seminar on Wednesday evenings. The rest of my content is online! I'm so excited to get started and hope that if things on the baby making front don't go as I'd hoped, school will keep me busy and keep my mind occupied while we come up with another plan.
As for another plan...we really don't have one yet. If this doesn't work, it would be foolish to start another cycle of EA knowing that I'm starting school in the fall. On top of that, Mom and Dad have been covering the bulk of our expenses surround the transfer and I don't want them to feel as though they have to continue doing that. They have been so incredibly supportive through all this and while I know they want a grandchild as badly as we want a child, I don't want them to use up any more of their hard earned money on something that may not be in the Lord's time.
Bottom line is, we have a whole lot of praying to do in the months ahead and I'm just hoping that we're receptive to God's plan in the months to come.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Round 2...
Well, we're all set for June 18th! We've chosen our embryos and I started the Lupron on Tuesday. There was a bit of a scare with the Lupron due to the national shortage of the drug, but I found a "compounded" Lupron available at a pharmacy in Arizona. Only problem was that insurance didn't cover it. Thank God it was only $125 out of pocket!
We got my post transfer blood work back (the stuff that was supposed to help the doctor figure out why our last FET didn't work) and my anti-phosphatidylethanolamine levels were elevated which I was told could lead to some blood clotting issues that could potentially starve the baby in the womb. The treatment for that is subcutaneous Lovenox every day. Woohoo!!! Another shot!!!
They also found a mutation on my MTHFR gene (C677t) which affects how my body metabolizes certain nutrients and requires me to be on a higher dosage of folic acid and my B vitamins in order to ensure that the baby would be getting all that it needs for neural tube development. I'm not gonna lie, when I first got the e-mail explaining all of this I was a little worried, but our nurse quickly settled me down.
So we're moving right along with our protocol and we're heading to VA after work on June 14th. Our catheter fitting is scheduled for June 15th and rather than drive up and back like we did the last time, we're just going to stay in the hotel and relax for a few days until the transfer on the 18th.
On a non-baby related topic, I got in to nursing school!!! I go for orientation on June 13th and I'll register for my classes then. It's an online/hybrid program so I'll only have to go to clinicals/simulated labs on Mondays and then a lecture on Wednesday or Tuesday evenings. My boss was supposed to start scheduling me for four, ten hour shifts a few months ago, but she drags her feet about everything so that hasn't happened yet. I'm hoping she gets moving on that because I really don't feel like trying to find another job within the university during all of this.
After the last FET didn't work I had started praying that if this wasn't the way that we were supposed to build our family, that God let us know before we went through the next transfer. Not because I don't think that we're strong enough to handle the disappointment, but because it's a rather expensive disappointment and while my parents are footing the bill again, we'd rather not have them shell out more money for an unsuccessful procedure. I prayed for a sign that this wasn't the right route for us and to lead us towards the right path. I'm struggling with the thought that my acceptance into nursing school or the abnormal blood work was His way of steering us in another direction. I due tend to work better under pressure and the timing of everything with the pregnancy would work out OK with my school semester so I think we're just going to continue to pray about it as we move forward. I just don't want to be deaf to His calling, but I know His plan is already laid out for us. He's put such an easy way over each of these hurdles that I'm hoping this is just his way of showing us that we can do it all!
We got my post transfer blood work back (the stuff that was supposed to help the doctor figure out why our last FET didn't work) and my anti-phosphatidylethanolamine levels were elevated which I was told could lead to some blood clotting issues that could potentially starve the baby in the womb. The treatment for that is subcutaneous Lovenox every day. Woohoo!!! Another shot!!!
They also found a mutation on my MTHFR gene (C677t) which affects how my body metabolizes certain nutrients and requires me to be on a higher dosage of folic acid and my B vitamins in order to ensure that the baby would be getting all that it needs for neural tube development. I'm not gonna lie, when I first got the e-mail explaining all of this I was a little worried, but our nurse quickly settled me down.
So we're moving right along with our protocol and we're heading to VA after work on June 14th. Our catheter fitting is scheduled for June 15th and rather than drive up and back like we did the last time, we're just going to stay in the hotel and relax for a few days until the transfer on the 18th.
On a non-baby related topic, I got in to nursing school!!! I go for orientation on June 13th and I'll register for my classes then. It's an online/hybrid program so I'll only have to go to clinicals/simulated labs on Mondays and then a lecture on Wednesday or Tuesday evenings. My boss was supposed to start scheduling me for four, ten hour shifts a few months ago, but she drags her feet about everything so that hasn't happened yet. I'm hoping she gets moving on that because I really don't feel like trying to find another job within the university during all of this.
After the last FET didn't work I had started praying that if this wasn't the way that we were supposed to build our family, that God let us know before we went through the next transfer. Not because I don't think that we're strong enough to handle the disappointment, but because it's a rather expensive disappointment and while my parents are footing the bill again, we'd rather not have them shell out more money for an unsuccessful procedure. I prayed for a sign that this wasn't the right route for us and to lead us towards the right path. I'm struggling with the thought that my acceptance into nursing school or the abnormal blood work was His way of steering us in another direction. I due tend to work better under pressure and the timing of everything with the pregnancy would work out OK with my school semester so I think we're just going to continue to pray about it as we move forward. I just don't want to be deaf to His calling, but I know His plan is already laid out for us. He's put such an easy way over each of these hurdles that I'm hoping this is just his way of showing us that we can do it all!
Monday, May 9, 2011
On the road again...
These past few days have really shown me what a merciful and awesome God I serve!!! As I said in my last post, Friday was tough, but after I talked to our nurse and got a tentative plan in place, I felt a lot better. I had been praying for God's will to be done in this situation and if His will and mine weren't the same, I had prayed for peace & strength to make it through. I didn't expect that peace to come so quickly!
I spoke to our pastor on Friday night and explained everything to him and my thinking about God's plan in all this. He prayed with me and asked how I was feeling about Mother's day. I told him I wasn't sure if he'd see me at church because they were doing baby dedications and I didn't know if I could handle that. He told me they were only doing one at the 11:00 service and it was a family that I love anyway. He encouraged me to give it a shot and come anyway and if I had to step out during the dedication I could. I told him I'd do my best.
I spent Saturday pampering myself...gave myself a manicure, pedicure and facial and held a Harry Potter marathon. Hubby came home from work and we watched a movie together and got to bed early. Not a tear was shed!
I made it to church Sunday morning for an awesome worship service by our praise team and a great message by our pastor. Again, not a tear was shed!!
I heard from my nurse today who said that we were cleared by our doctor to move ahead with another cycle!!! She said the doctor just wanted me to have some labs drawn to make sure my body wasn't making antibodies that were preventing implantation. I'll go have those drawn today and will start BCP on day 2 of my next cycle!!! I checked the 2011 transfer schedule that they had sent me prior to our first FET and saw dates in the end of June and July. I was assuming that we wouldn't have everything done in time for the June dates, but our nurse seems to think we'll be ok!! Tentative FET #2 date is June 16th!!!
Not only did He bring me peace so quickly and the strength to make it through, but He was merciful enough to make the initial BETA negative. I'm not sure that peace would have come so quickly if we had gotten a positive and then found out later that it wasn't a viable pregnancy. I'm going to continue to let Him guide my steps through all this and pray that these are our babies!!!
I spoke to our pastor on Friday night and explained everything to him and my thinking about God's plan in all this. He prayed with me and asked how I was feeling about Mother's day. I told him I wasn't sure if he'd see me at church because they were doing baby dedications and I didn't know if I could handle that. He told me they were only doing one at the 11:00 service and it was a family that I love anyway. He encouraged me to give it a shot and come anyway and if I had to step out during the dedication I could. I told him I'd do my best.
I spent Saturday pampering myself...gave myself a manicure, pedicure and facial and held a Harry Potter marathon. Hubby came home from work and we watched a movie together and got to bed early. Not a tear was shed!
I made it to church Sunday morning for an awesome worship service by our praise team and a great message by our pastor. Again, not a tear was shed!!
I heard from my nurse today who said that we were cleared by our doctor to move ahead with another cycle!!! She said the doctor just wanted me to have some labs drawn to make sure my body wasn't making antibodies that were preventing implantation. I'll go have those drawn today and will start BCP on day 2 of my next cycle!!! I checked the 2011 transfer schedule that they had sent me prior to our first FET and saw dates in the end of June and July. I was assuming that we wouldn't have everything done in time for the June dates, but our nurse seems to think we'll be ok!! Tentative FET #2 date is June 16th!!!
Not only did He bring me peace so quickly and the strength to make it through, but He was merciful enough to make the initial BETA negative. I'm not sure that peace would have come so quickly if we had gotten a positive and then found out later that it wasn't a viable pregnancy. I'm going to continue to let Him guide my steps through all this and pray that these are our babies!!!
Friday, May 6, 2011
"I will praise You in this storm...
...and I will lift my hands, for You are who You are, no matter where I am and every tear I've cried, You hold in Your hand. You NEVER left my side and though my heart is torn, I will praise You in this storm." ~Casting Crowns
The doctors office called last night with my BETA results....negative. The nurse said something about calling on the first day of my next cycle and something else about scheduling a follow up with the doctor, but it's like she was talking through mud after I heard the word negative. Deep down inside I knew it and I kinda started the mourning process on Wednesday night, although at that point I just thought it was all these hormones getting the best of me. DH was at a men's ministry meeting at church when they called because we thought we wouldn't hear from them last night since earlier in the evening it had seemed that Labcorp hadn't sent the results. I called and asked him to come home through sobs. Then I called my mom (who drove right over) and his mom to let them know.
I was kind of numb last night. We cried until we didn't have any tears left and then we kinda just sat there and stared at the clock. I made it to work this morning, by the grace of God. It wasn't until I got there that I realized that I had forgotten to wash my face in the shower and I had to check and make sure I put deodorant on. I was in zombie mode this morning. My boss can be a little unstable at times, to say the least and I wasn't sure how she would be this morning, but she offered to let me go home as soon as she got in and I explained the situation to her. I told her that I didn't have a problem with working today, but asked if I could be relieved of working with patients and do some clerical duties since tears were coming about every 5 minutes or so. She was very accommodating and I put in my 8 hours without having to use any leave time.
On the way home the tears were still coming in spurts, but the doctors scheduler had called this morning and asked me to call her back to schedule the follow up. When I did she was at lunch so I asked if my wonderful nurse was there because I had a few questions. DH and I had talked last night about when to try again. Our logic was that right now, all my pre-transfer testing is current and I have some left over meds that aren't expired. If we wait, I'll have to have all those tests done again (and pay for them again) and order all those meds again (and pay for them again). We figured as long as we're both ready, we should just give it another shot ASAP.
Our nurse said that's fine and she's proud of us for not giving up. She said they'll start me on BCP on day 2 of my next cycle and we'll go from there. She sent me 3 profiles that they had available, only one of which was in the batch from last time. I kinda feel bad for those little guys...they keep getting skipped over. There's one I like right off the bat, but DH isn't home yet to get his opinion. The only catch is that our doctor has to approve us to try again. With their embryos in such high demand and such short supply their policy is to just give you one try, but the doctor can decide otherwise if she thinks the second time will be successful. I scheduled our follow up with her on Thursday to discuss our options for moving forward.
I guess if the dear Lord shuts the door on this one, we'll have some waiting and praying to do to figure out what to do next, but it's important to me that we don't give up. I need to be working towards a goal in this infertility journey. The 18 months that we were waiting and praying for guidance were the worst for me and that's when I get depressed. I need a plan. Even if it's a long term plan, I still need to have one. Until then, I will continue to praise Him in this storm. Everyone keeps telling me that feeling anger towards God is normal. I don't mean to sound boastful or anything, but I've never once, throughout this whole journey felt anger towards Him. I know this is part of a plan and I don't know the details of that plan. I'm just going to take this day by day and follow where the Lord leads me. Faith is taking that first step, when you can't see the staircase.
The doctors office called last night with my BETA results....negative. The nurse said something about calling on the first day of my next cycle and something else about scheduling a follow up with the doctor, but it's like she was talking through mud after I heard the word negative. Deep down inside I knew it and I kinda started the mourning process on Wednesday night, although at that point I just thought it was all these hormones getting the best of me. DH was at a men's ministry meeting at church when they called because we thought we wouldn't hear from them last night since earlier in the evening it had seemed that Labcorp hadn't sent the results. I called and asked him to come home through sobs. Then I called my mom (who drove right over) and his mom to let them know.
I was kind of numb last night. We cried until we didn't have any tears left and then we kinda just sat there and stared at the clock. I made it to work this morning, by the grace of God. It wasn't until I got there that I realized that I had forgotten to wash my face in the shower and I had to check and make sure I put deodorant on. I was in zombie mode this morning. My boss can be a little unstable at times, to say the least and I wasn't sure how she would be this morning, but she offered to let me go home as soon as she got in and I explained the situation to her. I told her that I didn't have a problem with working today, but asked if I could be relieved of working with patients and do some clerical duties since tears were coming about every 5 minutes or so. She was very accommodating and I put in my 8 hours without having to use any leave time.
On the way home the tears were still coming in spurts, but the doctors scheduler had called this morning and asked me to call her back to schedule the follow up. When I did she was at lunch so I asked if my wonderful nurse was there because I had a few questions. DH and I had talked last night about when to try again. Our logic was that right now, all my pre-transfer testing is current and I have some left over meds that aren't expired. If we wait, I'll have to have all those tests done again (and pay for them again) and order all those meds again (and pay for them again). We figured as long as we're both ready, we should just give it another shot ASAP.
Our nurse said that's fine and she's proud of us for not giving up. She said they'll start me on BCP on day 2 of my next cycle and we'll go from there. She sent me 3 profiles that they had available, only one of which was in the batch from last time. I kinda feel bad for those little guys...they keep getting skipped over. There's one I like right off the bat, but DH isn't home yet to get his opinion. The only catch is that our doctor has to approve us to try again. With their embryos in such high demand and such short supply their policy is to just give you one try, but the doctor can decide otherwise if she thinks the second time will be successful. I scheduled our follow up with her on Thursday to discuss our options for moving forward.
I guess if the dear Lord shuts the door on this one, we'll have some waiting and praying to do to figure out what to do next, but it's important to me that we don't give up. I need to be working towards a goal in this infertility journey. The 18 months that we were waiting and praying for guidance were the worst for me and that's when I get depressed. I need a plan. Even if it's a long term plan, I still need to have one. Until then, I will continue to praise Him in this storm. Everyone keeps telling me that feeling anger towards God is normal. I don't mean to sound boastful or anything, but I've never once, throughout this whole journey felt anger towards Him. I know this is part of a plan and I don't know the details of that plan. I'm just going to take this day by day and follow where the Lord leads me. Faith is taking that first step, when you can't see the staircase.
Friday, April 29, 2011
2ww...
...is so much worse when you know that at the beginning of it you were definitely pregnant! All the other 2wws were a bunch of wondering....did it work this month? Did we time it right? Should I have laid flat longer? I keep wondering if I'm having symptoms and then I have to remind myself that I'm artificially supplying myself with all of the things that my body would normally produce during pregnancy so I don't know if it's the meds or perhaps a baby (or two!) has decided to stick around?
My biggest complaint is heartburn/indigestion. I mean is it really possible for grits to give you heartburn???? Well, they did. And I feel nauseous a little off and on throughout the day, but again, maybe I'm psyching myself up about it or maybe it's just the meds.
I had my E2 labs drawn on Monday at my work (I work at a hospital). They were supposed to be STAT....we just got the results yesterday!!! The Core Lab got an ear full from me yesterday, let me tell you! It seems like every time I come here for blood work, something gets messed up! Anyway, my E2 level was at 925. I got a call from the nurse last night who said that everything is right where it should be, to continue on with my meds as is and wait for pregnancy labs on Thursday. Which I scheduled at Lapcorp, by the way. I couldn't stand to have them mess those up!
After we realized there would be some delay in the results I started praying that my levels were okay to sustain this pregnancy. Since we were supposed to know by Monday afternoon if any meds needed to be adjusted, I was super worried to be waiting until Thursday to find anything out. Once again, the dear Lord was looking down on me and alleviated my worries. He keeps showing up right when I need Him!!
I caved and took an HPT a few times and they all came back negative. I thought they would but I have a bunch left over that expire soon so there's no harm in using them up, right? ;) This time next week we'll have the final verdict....really wish I could press fast forward! My friend, Rachel, who I was blessed to meet through work directed me to a scripture passage that helped her through some difficult times recently. "The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you..." (2 Peter 3:9). I've been trying to focus on the fact that a two week wait is like a blink for my God and all good things will come to those who wait for His will to be done.
My biggest complaint is heartburn/indigestion. I mean is it really possible for grits to give you heartburn???? Well, they did. And I feel nauseous a little off and on throughout the day, but again, maybe I'm psyching myself up about it or maybe it's just the meds.
I had my E2 labs drawn on Monday at my work (I work at a hospital). They were supposed to be STAT....we just got the results yesterday!!! The Core Lab got an ear full from me yesterday, let me tell you! It seems like every time I come here for blood work, something gets messed up! Anyway, my E2 level was at 925. I got a call from the nurse last night who said that everything is right where it should be, to continue on with my meds as is and wait for pregnancy labs on Thursday. Which I scheduled at Lapcorp, by the way. I couldn't stand to have them mess those up!
After we realized there would be some delay in the results I started praying that my levels were okay to sustain this pregnancy. Since we were supposed to know by Monday afternoon if any meds needed to be adjusted, I was super worried to be waiting until Thursday to find anything out. Once again, the dear Lord was looking down on me and alleviated my worries. He keeps showing up right when I need Him!!
I caved and took an HPT a few times and they all came back negative. I thought they would but I have a bunch left over that expire soon so there's no harm in using them up, right? ;) This time next week we'll have the final verdict....really wish I could press fast forward! My friend, Rachel, who I was blessed to meet through work directed me to a scripture passage that helped her through some difficult times recently. "The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you..." (2 Peter 3:9). I've been trying to focus on the fact that a two week wait is like a blink for my God and all good things will come to those who wait for His will to be done.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Babies on board...
I was going to try to update from my phone but that's a lot harder than I thought i would be so I figured I'd wait until I was allowed out of bed to do some blogging. Everything went wonderfully yesterday and I only cried twice!
A while back, I had made the statement that coincidences are Gods way of remaining anonymous. Well, there were several indications that His hand was all over this process yesterday. As soon as we got there I was taken back for my massage and my masseuse's name was Todd. Todd was what my parents were going to name me if I had been a boy. While that wasn't one that brought me to tears I thought it was neat.
After my massage was over they took me to the procedure room for my acupuncture. The nurse got me situated and told me that Luke, my acupuncturist would be in in a minute. That's when I cried. The scripture verse that I've kept close to my heart through all of this is Luke 1:37 and I took this as good sign.
Right after we had decided on our profile, I asked our nurse if it was okay to write a letter to the donor family as long as it remains anonymous. She said that wouldn't be a problem so I e-mailed my nurse the letter yesterday morning. When we got to the clinic and finally met this woman who had answered all four million questions I had, she told me that she was so excited to send them the letter because they had asked to be informed when their embryos were chosen.
When I wrote the letter to the family I mentioned God and prayer as I usually would, but I wasn't sure how that would be received on their end. I just wasn't sure what kind of people they were. Could the biological parents of our child be non-believers? All of my doubts were put to rest when my nurse brought in the response e-mail she had gotten from our donor family. They said that they were typing through tears, that they had prayed for us and our family and were eternally grateful to us for giving their babies a chance at life. Having this letter immediately put my mind at ease. Knowing that they were faithful people and that our babies would have two more people praying for them along the way made me feel such relief. Oh, and I cried again!
DH came in with his little surgical hat and booties on and stayed with me through the transfer. The embryologist came in and showed us pictures of our babies. She graded one a 4AA and the other a 3BB. She explained that the number indicates how far along they are in the hatching process and the letters grade the quality of the cells. She said she was very optimistic about both, but of course the 4AA was her favorite. We're praying they both stick around!
The procedure took all of about 15 minutes and then Luke came back in to do another round of acupuncture. I kept those needles in for a half hour and then we were on our way. I was told to stay flat on my back in bed for 24 hours. That part was easier said than done! We stopped at Panera Bread and DH ran in to get some carry out on the way back. When we got back to the hotel I got into bed, ate and then napped the Valium off. I have some sciatic nerve issues on my left side so staying flat was super painful. When 11:00 this morning rolled around I was thrilled to get out of bed and get a shower!
The Dr. gave me an order for E2 blood work on Monday and then I'll go for my first BETA on May 5th. This is probably going to be the longest two week wait ever! All the other waits were praying that I was pregnant. This time around, I know I'm pregnant and I'm just praying to stay pregnant!
I'm still praying that His will be done and for the strength to get through whatever that will may be. I know I serve a gracious and merciful God who has a plan for our lives and I'm praying He makes that plan known.
A while back, I had made the statement that coincidences are Gods way of remaining anonymous. Well, there were several indications that His hand was all over this process yesterday. As soon as we got there I was taken back for my massage and my masseuse's name was Todd. Todd was what my parents were going to name me if I had been a boy. While that wasn't one that brought me to tears I thought it was neat.
After my massage was over they took me to the procedure room for my acupuncture. The nurse got me situated and told me that Luke, my acupuncturist would be in in a minute. That's when I cried. The scripture verse that I've kept close to my heart through all of this is Luke 1:37 and I took this as good sign.
Right after we had decided on our profile, I asked our nurse if it was okay to write a letter to the donor family as long as it remains anonymous. She said that wouldn't be a problem so I e-mailed my nurse the letter yesterday morning. When we got to the clinic and finally met this woman who had answered all four million questions I had, she told me that she was so excited to send them the letter because they had asked to be informed when their embryos were chosen.
When I wrote the letter to the family I mentioned God and prayer as I usually would, but I wasn't sure how that would be received on their end. I just wasn't sure what kind of people they were. Could the biological parents of our child be non-believers? All of my doubts were put to rest when my nurse brought in the response e-mail she had gotten from our donor family. They said that they were typing through tears, that they had prayed for us and our family and were eternally grateful to us for giving their babies a chance at life. Having this letter immediately put my mind at ease. Knowing that they were faithful people and that our babies would have two more people praying for them along the way made me feel such relief. Oh, and I cried again!
DH came in with his little surgical hat and booties on and stayed with me through the transfer. The embryologist came in and showed us pictures of our babies. She graded one a 4AA and the other a 3BB. She explained that the number indicates how far along they are in the hatching process and the letters grade the quality of the cells. She said she was very optimistic about both, but of course the 4AA was her favorite. We're praying they both stick around!
The procedure took all of about 15 minutes and then Luke came back in to do another round of acupuncture. I kept those needles in for a half hour and then we were on our way. I was told to stay flat on my back in bed for 24 hours. That part was easier said than done! We stopped at Panera Bread and DH ran in to get some carry out on the way back. When we got back to the hotel I got into bed, ate and then napped the Valium off. I have some sciatic nerve issues on my left side so staying flat was super painful. When 11:00 this morning rolled around I was thrilled to get out of bed and get a shower!
The Dr. gave me an order for E2 blood work on Monday and then I'll go for my first BETA on May 5th. This is probably going to be the longest two week wait ever! All the other waits were praying that I was pregnant. This time around, I know I'm pregnant and I'm just praying to stay pregnant!
I'm still praying that His will be done and for the strength to get through whatever that will may be. I know I serve a gracious and merciful God who has a plan for our lives and I'm praying He makes that plan known.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Transfer day....
We're here!!! Needless to say, I didn't sleep very well so I decided to get up early and get ready and blog for a bit while DH is getting ready. The clinic called yesterday on our way down here and told us that the case before us was cancelled and that they'd bumped us up to 9:00. Works well for me! Thank God they didn't try to make it in the afternoon! I never would have made it all day.
I'm excited, but not really nervous. I'm wondering if that's normal? I'm still just floating along in my prayer bubble right now. There are so many people pulling for us that I feel sheltered from that negativity and hopefully not being stressed about it is good for the babies.
Speaking of babies, our little furbabies are staying with my parents while we're down here and I miss them terribly. It's weird how you miss the little things....patter of feet on the hardwood floor, someone to greet you when you get home, someone to stare at you while you're eating! I know they're having a blast with their grandparents, but I hope they're not getting spoiled too much!
Well, I'm signing off here so I can finish getting ready and wake DH up. I think I said it in the last post because I wasn't anticipating being able to blog this morning, but "Next time you hear from me I'll be PUPO!!"
I'm excited, but not really nervous. I'm wondering if that's normal? I'm still just floating along in my prayer bubble right now. There are so many people pulling for us that I feel sheltered from that negativity and hopefully not being stressed about it is good for the babies.
Speaking of babies, our little furbabies are staying with my parents while we're down here and I miss them terribly. It's weird how you miss the little things....patter of feet on the hardwood floor, someone to greet you when you get home, someone to stare at you while you're eating! I know they're having a blast with their grandparents, but I hope they're not getting spoiled too much!
Well, I'm signing off here so I can finish getting ready and wake DH up. I think I said it in the last post because I wasn't anticipating being able to blog this morning, but "Next time you hear from me I'll be PUPO!!"
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